Sorry friends

[vixie]

Im sorry I havent been around...I have a new mobile number too (pm'd you trev) Where I have been,

I was admitted to hospital 3weeks ago, I collapsed and my potassium levels were so low that they thought Id have a heart attact. I had 2 IV lines of potassium and various minerals/salts.
I was diagnosed with peripheral neuropathy.
I have had to leave my home Im now classed as homeless, living on my cousins sofa, in a small household with her husband and four kiddies beween 2years and 13 years

and finally,

Last night I was sexually assaulted by my friend, a friend who swore he would kill my uncle for the years of abuse when I was a kid...I trusted him. He carried on when I said no I just want to curl up and cry and disappear. It hurts too much to contemplate. he was my friend.

so, thats it really, just wanted to apologise too for hiding in the woodwork for a few weeks


hugs to all, love pix xxx

[Trev Williams]

Vixie, I'm so sorry to hear all that.. all these things sound horrific, you must be such a strong person to be able to get though all that.

please don't appologise.. I thought there might be something wrong.. I know this board might only act as a small amount of support, but we're all rooting for you vixie.
speak soon
love Trev

[lorraine1]

Hi Vixie

I have just logged on and read your email, and trevs reply today. I hope its o.k for me to just log mine too, as I agree with Trev - you must have such strength, considering the health, and personal issues you have experienced.

Sometimes when so much happens at once, it can be hard to know where to start, or what to do, especially when those that are trusted let us down too.

It may seem impossible to think that anyone can provide some support for you through all this, but there are places that may be able to.

Some of the links on Trevs website can take you to the MIND information, and through some of the projects, there will be people who can offer signposting for housing, or support and contacts for the more personal stuff. I hope you might be able to access them, if you are not already.

Take care Vixie -
Lolly

[Tessa]

Hello Vixie,
I would like to add my voice to say how sorry I am that you are suffering in all these ways at the same time.
Hang on there and take each day one at a time. All that medical stuff sounds hard to get to grips with, and I hope that you will take good care of yourself.
Sending you a big, gentle hug,
Tessa

[Erica]

I agree, Vixie!

Things sound like they are really tough for you. It is hard when things happen that we can't control. I hope you are able to find the support you need, and the strength to get through it all!

My thoughts and prayers are with you, Vixie!

Erica

[Tessa]

Thinking of you Vixie.
Love, Tessa

[vixie]

Thank you all so much for your support, it means so much to me right now, **hugs**
I'm trying to stay somewhat strong, despite the uphill struggle...I tried to get help today, as things hit me pretty hard, but was turned away by CMHT as it was nearly closing time and they didnt know what I wanted them to do...and to be honest I didnt know either!

Anyway, I managed the day, Im still not back at work, I went back for the day but I keep having breakdowns at work and have to leave, so I got another sick note...my doctor didnt put the mental health things on, just the physical things...so I dont have to worry to much on my return

Thank you all so much once again, it truely is appreciated,

Much love, Vixie xxx

[Tessa]

It's good to hear from you, Vixie.

Taking one day at a time is the best way to tackle difficult times, I have found - or one hour at a time if that works better. ;D

And it's a funny thing, but when I feel unsupported, I think 'what would I like that person to say or do'. Quite often I cannot come up with anything that they could do any better - it's just me being negative or not coping very well.

I think it is a good idea when dealing with professionals to work out what it is that you really want or need, and whether you think there is any likelihood of them providing it. Sometimes they can't work outside the box - but they don't always inform you about what the box is. Or should that be, what is in the box?

You are doing really well Vixie.
<<hugs>> from Tessa

[vixie]

Thanks Tessa, I get lost in and around that 'box' often lol! xxx

Things have improved somewhat from when I posted this, though I am still homeless and on sick leave, my mental health is stabalising with the help of an increase in meds

I am going to try go back to work a week on monday and see how it goes,

hugs and huge thanks to all, love vixie xxx

[Trev Williams]

vixie said:

Thanks Tessa, I get lost in and around that 'box' often lol! xxx

Things have improved somewhat from when I posted this, though I am still homeless and on sick leave, my mental health is stabalising with the help of an increase in meds

I am going to try go back to work a week on monday and see how it goes,

hugs and huge thanks to all, love vixie xxx

great to hear things are a bit better for you Vix
don't rush back to work.. take your time.. it's more important to get yourself together first. talk to you soon
Trev x

[Erica]

I'm glad to hear things are going better, Vixie! Do take your time. I hope it all goes well for you with it all!

[Tessa]

Hi Vixie,
Be kind to yourself each and every day - just as kind as you would be to your best friend.
It takes time to get properly stable - so give it plenty of time.
You are doing great
Love, Tessa